moving on

the moment you stare at a blank screen of a new blog post, the moment when all your thoughts start to abandon you.

so i guess i will just start by telling that i have been here in surabaya for almost two weeks? now that was quick. have not done much in particular, as the only thing i did on my first week here was slacking off all day long enjoying a non-busy life. this place has not changed much, apart from some new malls and restaurants and cafes of which names i have just heard.


despite of the naiveness this country still show , i love this country and i cannot explicitly say why... i can, but i just prefer to keep it personal.


the second week started and yeh, i finally decided to do something: learning how to swim. fyi, i had never actually tried holding my breath underwater before, let alone swimming, so this was surprisingly, as i think of it now, a crazy idea that i came up with just to fool around with myself and perhaps man up myself a bit. i hardly ever entered water so this whole swimming thing for me, is a pretty big deal.

but i have to admit it was quite fun, though i still am pathetic at it.
and i admit that i might have turned out to be a man not so manly despite myself turning to twenty next year. i am kind of glad that i am not typical, but sometimes it just troubles me for not being able to be 'normal'.


and i have not really thought about my future, about what i'm going to do and such. it's not that i don't want to plan, it's just that... i just can't picture a job i really want to do. time is running out i know, but how can we force things out here?


these are the songs i've been listening to lately:





i just wish some things will work out, accordingly.