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they say i've been drinking coffee too much. perhaps in their doses, yes, too much.

if i have to say i'm addicted to it, i admit i do. but no, they do not know that each sip of it contains caffeine that restores my alertness. indeed. now, now. if i have myself a cup of latte, see how vigilant i will be when i drink it all? i will be. i will be as bright as sun, star, or moon perhaps.

they say i've been having coffee too much. perhaps in their expenses, yes, too much.

if i have to say, i'm addicted to it, i admit i do. but no, they do not know that it is a necessity to buy one to start my day. indeed. well, well. if i have myself only a cup of latte for breakfast, see how much i have saved up? i have much. i will still be as bright as sun, star, or moon possibly.

they say i've been writing the same things for two paragraph. perhaps in their thoughts, yes, too much.

ah. life's tomorrow is what i have outside the window. a paved road with a coffee stall.

glitter

things are getting better, i have to say. the obvious one is that spring is about to come, the other one is that life starts to get exciting. a bond has well-created between us and i can feel the warmth between one another. my idealism was broken with the less bitter reality than i expected, in other words, it is sweeter. i've done lots and lots and lots of foolish things during the first month i was here. all scared up. confidence was not present and each days passed were mere sigh. i am transformed, i know, though i never quite like the process.

but.

no one ever knows what He has in mind. the ordeal we face, has its reason to be there for us to remember it. failing to recognize the meaning will only lead us to despair, while grasping it might lead us to the answer. might, i say, since no such answer exists.

day will so take over the night when the time comes. it is then time to open the blindfold and see the light out of the windows.

one step further

a month! been here for a month and time just passed so quick. the cold breeze must have frozen my brain so that it could not keep track of time anymore. but anyway, life continues.

seeing how much i have changed, not much, but i did. i have managed to find a bit of comfort here around this cold winter. warmth is not only under my sheet, i found a place other than there. the warmth of freshly sprouted friendship here, growing slowly in the midst of absurd temperature. it is nice to know that we are here together facing the same thing, racing on the same pace, catching up our breath which is starting to run low. we know each other for only about a month, but we are starting to get close to one another. we are, we are, and we are glad to reach this place. the place to start everything anew.

by the way, talking about the weather, it is absurd, tonight is. the wind blew so strong and i felt an indefinite amount of chills entering my body just to pass by and freeze in process. spring, how i yearn for thee!

for the next few weeks, there will be loads of laughter and slaughter (bad pun). expect it not to be so easy, but life is not just outside the window.