glitter

things are getting better, i have to say. the obvious one is that spring is about to come, the other one is that life starts to get exciting. a bond has well-created between us and i can feel the warmth between one another. my idealism was broken with the less bitter reality than i expected, in other words, it is sweeter. i've done lots and lots and lots of foolish things during the first month i was here. all scared up. confidence was not present and each days passed were mere sigh. i am transformed, i know, though i never quite like the process.

but.

no one ever knows what He has in mind. the ordeal we face, has its reason to be there for us to remember it. failing to recognize the meaning will only lead us to despair, while grasping it might lead us to the answer. might, i say, since no such answer exists.

day will so take over the night when the time comes. it is then time to open the blindfold and see the light out of the windows.